Compete with yourself

When we sit and think about competition the first thing that comes to mind is someone elses accomplishments. We sit and try to compare our lives to theirs, because we are not 100% content with the way things have turned out for us. We are not doing any and everything we can to make sure that our lives are lived with a purpose. A purpose of something greater than what we currently have.
See, but that's not how life is suppose to be. Competition is nothing more than a contest, and that contest can be with someone else, or just within yourself. We often sit and think about competition against someone else, but we never take the time to realize that God only wants you to compete with yourself. He made us extremely unique just for that purpose, and that purpose is to fulfill whatever gifts and talents he blessed you with. Not Tasha, Tim, or Tara's gifts, but yours! See God has a plan for us all, and that plan is to live with a meaning. Live your life by doing the things that make you happy.
Alot of us are sitting at a desk at a job we can't stand right now, and what good is that doing us? What gifts and talents are we truly displaying? Is it just because we need that paycheck at the end of the two weeks? Or just because we are terrified to not make ends meet? Why do you think we were placed there in the first place? Is it because God just blessed us with the opportunity to sit and do nothing, or work like a slave and be under paid? Why settle I say? Why settle for a job that will always be just that, a JOB? Why not focus on making a career of your life. Actually using our gifts and talents to better ourselves as well as our families. We as a people need to learn how to set goals, and then murder them with no regrets! We need to learn how to go hard in the paint for something other than the ordinary life. We need to learn how to come together and help utilize our gifts and talents that GOD blessed us with from the beginning of man-kind, and truly make a difference in our communities and even the world. So I say to you today, to sit down and think about all the things that you ever wanted to accomplish, but never had the guts to start. Write it all down, set your goals..and MURDER THE SHIT OUT THEM! Oh and be inspired, because I am.

I'm ready"

I'm ready.....
waiting patiently for that beautiful moment...
one of love and true dedication..
A pure love, one that can't be ignored....
It's one that I've actually longed for...
I'm longing for his kiss...
longing for that love...
One you can see from all angles...
the way it moves from one to another...
I can feel it in his touch...
that pierces thru my soul like a cutting dagger...and excites me, erotically.
I'm constantly yearning for him...
deeper in more ways than one.
He's my soulmate...my bestfriend...my love...
And I simply look forward to spending the rest of my life with him....
"I'm ready"...

ENOUGH!!!!

When is enough really enough? When will the time arrive, when you truly just give up on certain things, or certain people? I find myself asking that very question to myself alot lately, because I call myself "cleaning out the closets"...cleaning out all the negativities in my life. The things that keep me from truly experiencing all that God has in store for me. Often worrying if I've cut off some of the wrong people, just because it seemed like the right thing to do. Constantly deleting phone contacts, and email address, just to clean it all up.
But, how is that helping me? How can I truly be making life better for me and mine, when I'm cutting off some things that made me, ME. Some of the difficult experiences in life, often form your way of being. Your thoughts on living, and your thoughts on your future. I just want to be free to be me. Free to think how I feel, and feel what I want. Hate, when I feel its ok, and Love who I want. Often feeling like my creativity is fading, because i don't put every single gift into play...just wanting all of my talents, to show me the way.
Show me the way of living, and a way to succeed....a way to let my true feeling show, and let life be....Be what it is, or be what God wants...just make me happy in the process, so I can feel like its what I truly want.

Loving my life...and all the passion it holds...just loving every ounce of the pot of Gold that I hold in my heart. The gold braces of talent, and determination. Not being afraid to make my opinions matter, or at least seem like they do. Lol...

I can write how I want to write, and do what I feel. Enough will be enough, when I feel that this is all real. Enough love is here, and enough talent...but not enough courage to truly feel inspired. Inspired enough to go on...inspired enough to dream...just inspired enough to let my hair down...and continuously be me...

When will you give enough??? When will you know it's enough?? When will enough be enough to feel inspired, and give just enough?

Necessary Changes????

Have you ever thought about changing yourself to better yourself, or your relationship? Or maybe you've called it "making adjustments", "losing yourself", or "being a sell out". Either way, you took it upon yourself to make some, most of the time, necessary changes.
Sometimes in life we come across people that are just on another level than us, and we have to learn how to adapt to different levels of society. In relationships, we often try to work together with another person to make the relationship one where both parties are treated equally and respectful, and in doing so, we often have to make some necessary changes. The change could be as small as not cussing, or not putting your hands on your significant other, or it could be as big as not smoking, or drinking. Whatever the change may be, sometimes it can be a beneficial one. For instance, i had a friend who I won't name of course, who loved the fast life, and fast money. She wanted nothing more than to make as much money as fast as she could. She would do just about anything to get this money, even if it meant "losing herself" in the process. One day, she decided that she would meet with an older man and go do dinner. The man picked her up in his brand new BMW and they rushed off to dinner. They spent the next few hours at a 5-Star restaurant in the heart of the city. Just as she thought the night was about to end he decided that she owed him a bit more than she had prepared herself for. He proceeded to take her to a dark park after hours and get what he thought he deserved. Just as he went to take what he wanted, the park police pulled up and the woman jumped out and informed them that he was trying to take advantage of her. The young woman had no idea what she would have encounter that night, but she only had her mind focused on how much money she could have him spend on her. It never crossed her mind, that he thought she was a whore. So months later she runs into a beautiful man who treats her like a Queen, and with the mind of a hustler still in her heart, she tries to take full advantage of this man. He wines and dines her in hopes to truly pursue her, but she doesn't even see that coming. After months of dating this "Perfect" man, with the perfect job, the perfect car, and the perfect personality, she still can't see his true motives. Until one day he decides to take it to another level and proposes to her. As he pulls out the 10 carat princess cut diamond ring, her jaw hits the floor. She can't believe a man like him, would ever want to marry a woman like her. As she says "yes", she immediately remembers all the things she has taken advantage of with him, and feels the need to get it all out. She confesses with her mouth that she was indeed a gold digger and she never meant to hurt him. Surprisingly enough he still agrees to marry her, as long as she promised not to ever take advantage of his generosity again.

Not all of the world get second chances like that, but she was too blind to see the real man that she had finally encountered. They went on to have a great life together, with the perfect picture of a family. She really did make a change for the better. From that point on she truly appreciated every single little thing her husband did for her. She learned that when someone loves you, they show it. You don't need a million dollars, or a million words, just the emotion behind that love should be enough.

Sometimes change is necessary. Changing for the better, can make life make more sense. To change means to make the form, nature, content, future course, etc., of (something) different from what it is or from what it would be if left alone. So in a relationship we often make necessary changes in order to make the relationship be all that it could possibly be. We transform into the best mate that we can be. The best partner that we can become, and the best team to help broaden society's outlook on true love relationships.

Are you willing to change?

No Answer!

I hate it when you get no answer! You call...call..and call some more, but still no answer. What's the point of having a phone, if you don't answer it? It frustrates me when i call someone and they don't answer, or they call me, and I call back, and get no answer. Maybe i should stop answering calls altogether, then maybe someone will get the hint that TISH, just doesn't like when people don't answer. So if you are one of the people that I call and you see me calling and you simply don't answer, FUCK OFF! I guess that's just how I'll deal with it from this point on. #Ventmodesquad

So this month starts the birthday season for me, and I can truly say I am overwhelmed. I have a two year old daughter, Logan, who is the most energetic, loving, and spoiled diva I've ever met! She's only two and I'm spending more than i would spend on my wedding day! lol...See the first birthday I told myself I wouldnt over do it, and of course I did. Wayyyy over did it. Moonbounce, face painting, water balloons, water guns, swimming pools, i mean you name it, SHE had it! So this year, I told myself I wouldn't over do it again, and I think I set myself up. Planning with my family is always major. We need to know what decorations we will have. What the invitations will say, what the party room will look like, what the food will be like, what the cake or cupcakes in this situation will taste like. I mean we plan everything down to the T. So I am a little over a week away and I still don't know what the party favors will be. I know i may have confused myself with this blog, but I need to get it out. The Party Favors are the toughest thing for me this year. See I ordered this pretty favor boxes off of celebrateexpress.com. and once they arrived, after i had already spoken to her father about the boxes, he decides to tell me that they color scheme, which is pink, purple, and turquoise, will NOT go for all the boys that i've invited. So now I have to come up with a solution for the boys on the list. As crazy as it sounds, I have no idea what to get them. Of course most moms would pile the boxes with candy or non factoring things like that, but see I'm different.I love my daughters birthday parties to be the best. So that means I have to come up with some ideas for the bags that will accommodate ALL the kids on the list. I know this seems easy, but for me, its been quite the task! I look forward to letting you know how it all goes. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated! Good Day Bloggers!